Im the Ice Girl freezing you to the bone...
You Found Me@ 12:47 a.m.
Listen up I am only going to say this once. Yes Ambzy-bee died you fucking annoying bastards! Why the fuck cant you leave me alone? I deleted my lil talking box because you hounded me there, I fixed the link in her blog so you morons wouldnt go on there and just talk to each other saying stupid shit like "Is she dead? Did she die? WTF?" You assholes are making my life miserable! Seriusly do I have to move my fucking site? Im god damn upset about this more then anything else. I keep going to her blog hopping in some crazy way that she will update. I found out at the end of march and I swear to god I visited her blog every day, sometimes even five times a day. Thats why I changed her layout. I couldnt take seeing something written only to know it was something she had written a long time ago. I still keep hopping that this is a sick joke that jojo tryed to pull. Telling me she passed away. Do you have any idea how hard it is to accept still, two months after finding out. Just leave me the fuck alone >< You have your answer I dont want to hear from you people again. My next step is deleting this blog and getting a new one. I really cant take it anymore.
Monday, May 16, 2005
You Found Me@ 12:19 a.m.
*deep breath in and out* @.@ Okay, the week has been very stressful but it finaly ended. Do you think its weird that even if I dont post to you every day I think to you o.O; Im not crazy its just like. When I do little things like play a game, or see something purple, I think about you. Im not to sad. I mean Im not happy but x.x im not overly depressed I just miss you now. Chrissippoo said its not a bad thing if I act normal. I try my best to be happy and upbeat like I know you would want me to be. I even made an attempt to talk to katya! Whom by the way does not accept incoming calls.
The easter gaia event was really stupid x.x but the monthly donation item was kick arse. Its stupid but I almost want to donate for you so you get a letter even if you can never open it. *shrugs* Oh I got a psp and of course DarkStalkers! Again for the record, I suck as Bulleta! I mean as QBee I rock XD all I do is press down and R1 and I can kill anything with my l33t newbie skills! Felecia isnt that bad either. Oh and demetri has the funnyest attack! He turns everyone into a chick! You never told me that :P! Ill definatly have to draw something about that later.
I have purple and pink flowers by the way X3 they make me happy because you would like them. Oh! I almost forgot! Im so sorry I was going to get the aquarious and bumble bee faerie this week but the new Nene Thomas figures came out and they were just so beautiful I couldnt resist! Ill get the other two for my birthday probably so dont worry! I promised I would get them and I will. Although Im just about out of room on that first row of shelfs... X.x
I still need to take a picture of my WoW (world of warcraft) Rogue. She is named in your honor! Ambzybee! I wanted Ambzy-bee but noo blizard wouldnt let me ^^ She has purple hair and light purple skin, you would like her im posotive! I want to work hard on her because I want her to be super kick arse so you can be proud.
Maya dyed his foot, its so funny because he looks like an easter egg reject! I wont go into the details on how it happend but >.> its stil funny. Dyasty Warriors 5 is in two days!!! Yay!!! ^^ of course the only problem is >< It comes out on a day I DONT WORK! How the fock am I supposed to get it! I dont want to have to cancel my reserve and pick it up at delco but I get this funny fealing I might have to do just that! It never fails. I reserve something and it comes out on a day Im off... blah!
I dont mean this in a morbid way but, I wonder what happend to that lil glass bee you had. The one you sent me and chris a coppy of... >< Its sad but I like to think its with you now, and that you have it safe somewhere. I make sure to keep mine where I can see it now but I have to be carful of the Maya ¬.¬
Bleh x.x im sleepy as all heck. Ill try to blog again soon! I try to every day but by the time I think of it its already pretty late. ^^;;
Monday, March 28, 2005
You Found Me@ 11:03 a.m.
Okay, yesterday I had a form of nerviouse breakdown at work I think. I was upset all day (understandably) but I was dealing with things pretty well for the most part. The guy I was supposed to work with that night came in and was like "Whats wrong with you" while smiling... and the worst part is Chrissipppoo TOLD him what was wrong. I started to freak of course thinking about you and boom o.o I ran into the back and had a severe crying fit. Later on I found out that apparently he didnt understand what chris had said and thought something else with the information... stilly >< what an arase. Oh worse still, the back of the new GI Magazine has Devil May Cry 3 on it... I know you wanted to play it and you were waiting forever, and you never had a chance. So now seeing the back of the thing upsets me.
Happy thoughts, happy thoughts, lets try to think of something happy. Oh! I did find Dark Stalkers 3! Its way kick arse! I tryed to play as Bulleta for you but between you and me o.o; I reeeaaally suck at it. Like I can make her drop a boom from under her skirt but I cant manage to do any of the really cool attacks! Its trastrating @.@ But I wont give up X3 Ill just make chris do it for me!
I have like, huge guild trips everytime Im happy. Like since your gone I shouldnt be able to smile but people act funny to try to cheer me up, wich works. But afterwards I think things like "Why am I happy? Is it alright to smile? Would she be mad at me?" Im pretty sure you wouldnt want me to be sad but >< Its so focking hard not to be upset when I think about you. I miss you so damn much, I went on this whole search trying to get ahold of you for the past few weeks and finaly I found JoJo's email address and asked him and... he told me the news...
Damn it Happy thoughts! Im posting only for you yah know :P You loved to read my blog or at least you always bugged me to post so you could read it so thats why I shall talk.
Oh that SnK vs Capcom Card Fighter Clash game is really WEIRD! I tryed it and the images you found apparently arent the only images! Theres other ones like, theres this witch chick from pocket fighters and there a picture of her two cats and her hat! Its adorable, Ill take some images from it to post so you can see em.
There, you cant see it in this text format but inbetween the last sentence and this one I took a break to make a chibi angel ambzy-bee! Its perfect to! The kimono I used for the sailor saturn layout, with the coloring from the megaman character, the official ambzybee hair and body and one black wing and one white. I would rather have madet hem both white but I know you have this thing for being an angel with a darkside and your cute but not all innocent thign so X3 I think youll like it this way better. And so your not lonly I added your kitty with matching missmatched wings! That way you have company.
Someone is definatly going to read this one day and think Im wakado :P_:P Oiy oiy, today all the stupid games in the world come out and tomarrow the psp, I really dont want to go -.- Im just not in the mood. I might go to the fleamarket tomarrow and check on the faeries. This lady carrys the coolest faerie things. Im sure theres something purple I can get for you, and ill put it somewhere in my room so that its safe. It doesnt matter so much If I like it as if you like it. Theres also a bumblebee faerie!! Isnt that funny X3 I mean since your the bumblebee faerie princess and all! I just have to get it now even if she is a lil weird looking o.O;;;
I thought of a new layout for TaihenKawaii, I think its goign to be panel de pon, i just have to figure out wich character sheet page.
Wednesday, March 23, 2005
You Found Me@ 12:42 a.m.
I will honestly say making a layout for this blog and your blog was a very... dificult prosess. Not the making of but more the picking of images and trying to find the motivation to work on it. Even know I dont feel like blogging but I remember you loved when I made a new layout as a surpise or posted something, anything. Your still the bestest friend I have so please wait for me.
Chris and I made a promise to play the new games we know you would want to play, wich means Im going to have to get Devil May Cry 3 weather I like it or not. And I will buy dark stalkers and become oh so kick arse with bulleta just for you! Youll be proud of me I promise! I really miss you. When I herd the news I thought "Maybe its a lie! Maybe its some sick joke!" but its not. You got to sea the ocean finaly though.
This is just a small post before work... I finished your layout. You wont get to use it but Im sure your still very happy. Im sorry I put a message up but I dont think I could stand to see it the way it was. I kept hoping you would come back and post... and the way it was... I just couldnt look at it anymore. Im so sorry. I love you Ambzy-bee, please dont forget me and I wont forget you... just wait for me and when I come up there we can spend time togeather like we always wanted.
Tuesday, March 22, 2005
